Settling for less….let’s talk about it

For a long time I felt like it was arrogant to say you deserve anything. When people would say you deserve “the best” of whatever it was I’d become uncomfortable, unable to accept their hope for me. For a while now I’ve desired the love of a lifelong partner but would still stop short of saying I deserved it. However much I thought I knew my worth, it wasn’t until my actions actually aligned with that statement that I truly believed and embraced it. Recently I had a chance to go backwards. It was familiar and felt comfortable. I came up with a list of reasons that it would be ok to accept behaviors that I had long let go of simply because I was tired of being lonely. Yet how my mind works now, how I love myself now, and how God sees my life turning out I was unable to move forward. I didn’t realize how much I’d grown until I was in a situation where previously I would have melted into a pile of goo but instead became irritated with myself for ever thinking this was ok for my life. When enough people tell you your standards are too high at some point you start to question it and in the process find yourself settling for less. Well no more. You and I DO deserve to be loved, and to be loved correctly. No relationship…more accurately situationship should leave you hurting, confused, and questioning who you even are anymore. So I’ll continue to wait because how dare I think I know better than God who the right one for me is. Don’t lose hope, just look to him to sustain you in those quiet hard times. Our time is coming, I believe that.